Back to Work :(

So today was my first day back at work from Maternity Leave. I got up this morning at 6:45 and got myself all ready, ate breakfast, and even made a lunch and then I got Owen up and fed him and got him ready. I had the diaper bag ready last night and his clothes laid out so I wouldn't have to find things this morning. So I was ready and out the door at 8:20 (only 10 min later than I wanted, not bad) and brought him over to his babysitter, Liz. She's in our ward and has so kindly offered to watch Owen for us. I took a porta-crib and his bouncy seat so that he would have something to play in and i gave her all the instructions (typed out of course) and kissed Owen and was out the door. I got to work almost right one time, I was in the parking lot on time, but my boss was 30 min late so I guess my 5 min is OK.
So when I got to work i was so nervous I was shaking. I mean, work doesn't just sit and wait for you, and i haven't seen people for 12 weeks, so I was scared to be back. Everyone at work is super busy, of course, and didn't really have time to catch me up on anything so I was put in an empty desk (not my old desk)and given a project to work on. I was kinda bored but at least I had something to do. But I think I'll be getting my desk back tomorrow...hopefully, I don't like to be the outcast.
I had to pump at work too so that Owen still has something to eat each day and that was weird, I had to go into the bathroom to do it and I don't know, I was nervous enough to be at work, let alone have to be the odd one out and pump. But oh well, I survived.
When I called at lunch time to check up on Owen, his sitter said she needed to go to the dr and wanted to know if she could take Owen. I didn't want her to have to worry about him so I spent the next while trying to figure out what to do with him. I spoke with Alyssa and Liz and we decided that she would drop him off at Alyssa's work and then i would pick him up from there. Sad that he's just getting passed around. But then I was texting KC telling him what was going on and after a long conversation (all texting) he thought that I needed him to leave work right then to go get Owen. I was so emotional from the whole day that I almost cried after hearing that I had confused him making him think he needed to leave right then. (wow, emotional day). But we figured everything out and I made it through the rest of the day.
I got home (KC ended up picking Owen up early anyways so he was here when I got home) and Owen was super sleepy that he could barely smile when he saw me. So I cuddled him to sleep and just snuggled with him for a while. I missed him lots today.
Its hard going from home all day with Owen to being gone all day with out Owen. I'm sure I'll get used to it but it was sad. I had pictures of him on my phone that were supposed to be used to help my get through the day but they just made me miss him more. Its so nice to be home with him now though. I think going back to work will end up being OK because I will start having more to do and the days will go faster, but until then, I will try to enjoy my days at work.

We hope you all enjoyed conference weekend! Love you all lots.